Have you ever left church feeling worse than when you went in? You were hoping to be uplifted but instead your just reminded of all the things your not doing right. Maybe it's just me? All I know is that I've been feeling that way for a few months.
I'm sick of John having to work Sundays. I had to hurry and compose myself during the opening song, as tears were rolling down my cheeks. And it had nothing to do with the spirit. I'm tired. In every way a person can be tired. And sometimes I wonder if any of the good things I want for our family are ever going to happen.
I know I'm not patient. This is going to be my on going test in life, the P word. I just know it.
Oh, Camille! I'm sorry, but I kind of know where you are coming from. I personally don't like going to church. I don't feel welcome, and I go home feeling worse than before I went. I'd rather be at home with my family spending time together. I really am hoping some day this will change. It's also hard to go when your other half doesn't want to go. Makes it hard to juggle all 3 kids on your own. Hope you get feeling better...and much happier! *hugs*
ReplyDeleteOh, Camille. I'm so sorry. I didn't even realize you were having a tough day. I was so wrapped up in me. I'm sorry I didn't stay, either! Let me know if you need something. I know (KNOW!) going to church by yourself and how much it just, well, sucks.
ReplyDeleteAre you still in the same ward in Logan? My sister is in that ward, and will be blessing her baby in a couple of weeks, and I will be there. Sometimes it is hard to go to church (I'm not perfect, sometimes I do stay home, but then feel guilty), and go not because I want to be there, but because I know it is the right thing to do. Hang in there Camille! You are strong.
ReplyDeletethat 'feeling', eh? well...I wish I knew what to say. I think I'm doing it too. Wanna do it together? ;)
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